Tired. So Tired.

I totally understand how you're feeling Daia. (:

I'm tired. So tired of this. I am phlegmatic according to a temperament test. 

POSITIVES                                               NEGATIVE
PEACE MAKERS                                     UNMOTIVATED
QUIET                                                      PROCRASTINATOR
DON’T EXPRESS SELVES OR

GIVE INFO UNLESS ASKED.              UNDECISIVE
PERFECTIONIST SELFISH
CONTROL THEIR ANGER WELL       FEARFUL
CALM IN TENSE SITUATION –

MEDIATE & SETTLE ARGUMENTS   WORRIER
IMPORTANT TO THEM THAT

EVERYONE “FEELS” GOOD                  DAMPENS ENTHUSIASUM
EFFIECIENT                                         WOULD RATHER WATCH OR DO BEHIND THE SCEENS                                                                    WORK
SUTTLE HUMOR                                 CLEAN UP AFTER EVERYONE GOES HOME
QUIETLY OBSERVE SITUATIONS     FINDS THE EASY WAY OUT
GOOD LISTENERS                                 KEEPS EMOTIONS HIDDEN

See, those highlighted in red are my weaknesses. You might think, then why is it in the positives section? This is a case of an asset becoming a liability. I'm tired of having to do all the work. I'm not choleric, but I usually have to run the group. Without me, forgive my arrogance ;) , all will fail. :D Sometimes, if I'm angry then I totally pull away, withdraw, let them handle it then. Today, I will see how far I can stretch those boundaries. I am prepared to kick dust in their faces. The blackness of their eyes doesn't scare me, and never did and never will. At most times I am resigned to the fact that the hopeless bumblers around me are unable to organise anything for the matter. But when I do try even when I shouldn't and just let them take advantage. That, I cannot handle. Woohoo, this is a major exaggeration in some parts but true to the last word in other parts. I'm going to stop being phlegmatic and try being sanguine, they just take and take and keep on taking. 

Maybe I should get new friends. For my own good, then yes. But not for them. :)

P/s talking in code is fun.

P/ss I don't care.